hello blog.

im back from the Land of Smiles, to the indifferent Land of Concrete Jungle. So, being tossed from the happy land to the cold land, im naturally... not happy. On the taxi to the airport, I was already depressed. In fact, the last hour spent at the weekend market was a very sad hour. Im sad mainly because back there, i didnt have to think about things back home. Besides that, exams seemed a million years away. That explains all, doesnt it?

I don't care and I don't care. I will go there again. I will and I will. And I don't care. I'm not gonna eat to be able to save up ASAP. Don't wanna blare everything but the hostel was lovely! The places were beautiful and the people were so friendly! oh yah. The students aka ppl my age were so pretty and handsome too! Some of them were oh-so-gorgeous~! I like. XD

Anyway, Thailand's been a total eye-opener for me. Besides that, I've realized plenty about myself! For example, Marie shops like a girl. while my cousin was acting as if shopping was some kinda mission, armed with a mental checklist, I was getting my eyeful of the beautiful people and creations there. When i passed the shoe areas, i was gazing around, almost open-mouthed. Then i waited for that shoe to call out to me. But none did, in all my 4 days there. So; no shoe for me~ and it was like that for everything. For cousin, she was like. "okay, i need a pair of shoes. Lets go there shall we?" and then, she WILL get a pair of shoes. Sometimes, i admire that. But hey, whats shopping, if you dont have the feeling for the items?

love their food their. its like. roadside kinda thing, and they have all those finger food! And finger food is smth i like. Finger food over normal food, always! Those cheekens and satays were so tasty! And i feel so sad that im using past tense to say everything. Past. tense. Past. T_T Can i like. go back? like. now? like. without exams waiting for me as soon as i step down from the plane?

Oh! when i was there, i totally relaxed. really. i didnt even think about my poly mates and all things poly and anything. the only friends i was thinking about were those closer to me and what to get for them. The thing lizzo wanted proved SO elusive, i gave up. the things jy wanted, were so loud, they werent sold there. I thought of getting this japanese maid cos play kinda bra set for jy, but its not practical is it. the things pz wanted was like searching for a drop of blood in the ocean. so i gave up too. LOL. ultimately, i showed my cousin just how auntie i was, by buying food items back. what~! they're cheap lor. =X

When i was waiting at the departure area and saw all those singaporean faces, i really felt my heart sinking. suddenly, i just felt like crawling somewhere to hide. anything, to avoid hearing them speak. i heard all those weird broken english and thought something along the line "god, am i like that too; will i become like that?" and "can i just leave singapore?" another thing is, in sg, ppl are (mostly) average looking; slightly above average or ugly right? over there, the people are like. (mostly) pretty, handsome or average. im serious. and their manner of speaking, its soooo. gentle! maybe ill marry a thai guy. LOL. eh. no. cannot. oh well. we shd really learn from them. sigh. 3.33am; such a depressing time. such a sad day. such misery. such oppression. such gloominess. such is the life, of marie.

best thing is, in the indifferent and numb concrete jungle, nobody cares. I know that, thank you very much. bo nang guan but i still wanna crap can. sigh. maybe ill just apply for the jap citizenship. avoid making ppl confused summore. killing 2 birds with a stone. how cool. EH!. coolllllll. imagine me going up to the jap embassy and say "hey. I may be a japanese. What do u guys have to offer me?" and then, going to the sg embassy, show them my passport and saying "hey. i may not be a singaporean. what do u have to let me stay on here?" how very mercenary of me. how typical . sad sia. really sad. not say sad. its more of the depressed thing. sian. why? why?! WHY!



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