Whoa, though it's not even a year since I last posted, so many things have changed!

Mindset, goals and everything! Basically, my thoughts are scattered everywhere, I'm lost, and I definitely don't like this feeling.

It's like, school have always been an anchor to me. Through good and bad times, it was always there; occupying a huge part of my life (13 years, in fact :0). And because I knew that this anchor of mine was unshakable, I was happy, and did what I liked without fear.

Now that I've graduated, the anchor is lifted, and I'm suddenly set free. But... I think I'm the sort that need security and confirmation. This sudden "be good, bye!" is........... D:

What if I can't get into a course I like? Will I have to work in a field I totally am not meant for? Work for something I can't stand for the rest of my life? Like that, I should have appreciated my youth more!

I'd like to be like the bee. Born into something that I will be for the rest of my life. At least then, there wouldn't be any regrets and doubts! But then, it wouldn't be fun either.

So because I don't wanna think, I work and work and work part-time. At least I get paid while being lost.

Quarter life crisis, anyone? :(